Today could have been the worst day of my life. It could have been the day that we remembered forever, the day that our whole lives changed, and the day where my heart was torn out. It wasn’t, but it could have been.
After church, everyone was saying their goodbyes, and Amy walked across the parking lot to talk with another woman. Three-year-old Jacob ran after her, never noticing Betty backing out of her parking spot. My mother-in-law watched in horror as her grandchild ran into harms way, and she honked her horn, as the only action her panicked state allowed her to do. This alerted Betty, who immediately put on her brakes, and Amy, who had no idea until then how close we were to losing our precious Jacob.
I am friends with others who have lost children, and I do not know how they ever get through it. I have a vivid imagination, and I cannot even begin to try to imagine the pain of losing a child, especially one so young, especially to such a tragic accident. It leads me to these thoughts:
1. I am so glad for God’s protection. The Bible never talks about guardian angels per se, but it does say in Psalm 91:11: “For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.” You can be sure that I lived in thankfulness to God the rest of the day for His protection.
2. I am so glad for God’s goodness. I do not know the specific reasons that God spared Jacob, but I am so glad that He did. Yet, in saying that, I also do not believe that if He had not, He would no longer be good. When Betty heard that horn, she could have accidentally hit the accelerator instead of the brake. Before today I knew that God was good. God taking something good from me does not change that. Romans 8:28 says “We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
3. I am so glad for God’s grace. While I didn’t have to spend today begging God for grace, I know what the answer to that prayer would have been. God gives a peace and a grace that transcends knowledge, and especially in hard moments Jesus Christ comes to meet with us in our grief and heartache and gives us the grace we need. Paul asked God to remove his pain in 2 Corinthians 12, and God said this: “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”
Today could have been a bad day. I am so thankful it was not. What a loving Father I have to teach me about Him during what could have been the worst day of my life.